So I went to the market tonight to pick up a few things for the gang. As I watched the array of food passing through the checkout, it was a crazy study in contrasts. Not to mention what I devoured during the trip ’round the store. Ugh. Confession to follow.
Schizophrenic shopping cart contents
The right stuff.
Not so nice: sugar, dairy, and meat.
The slippery slope began slipping (or sloping) with the realization that Easter is this Sunday and I have six baskets to put a little sweetness within. And then I reached for a container full of something I knew wasn’t going in a basket.
My drug of choice tonight: chocolate + toffee covered pretzels. Yowza.
Why oh why did I do it? I know how unhealthy these are. I fully understand the physiological addictive qualities of the salt and the sweet, but there I went. I just couldn’t stop. One after the other. Until the register (and the container was nearly empty), and I asked the man at the checkout to take them away from me. So much for the warrior focus and self-restraint.
Maybe it was self-soothing. Actually, I’m sure it was. I was tired today. I stayed up later than my usual last night, crawling into bed at 3 am because there just aren’t enough hours in the day—or I’m not the time manager I’d like to be, yet. I was working on a new yoga class that I’d hoped would be a fun new twist on the tennis court at my local indoor tennis and fitness center. But it didn’t work so well, and I take the blame. I took a figurative stumble, and with it fell back into old habits without even realizing what I was doing.
The difference now, though, is that I’m aware. It’s time for self-forgiveness about my mistakes on the planning, time management, and obsessive eating-while-shopping. Keep on truckin,’ as my friend and teacher Jennilee says. Love that. I’m going to practice what I preach and re-read that great quote from Lucille Ball. Tomorrow, a new day.
I have an everyday religion that works for me. Love yourself first, and everything else falls into line. — Lucille Ball
The phrase “Schizophrenic shopping cart” made me laugh out loud 😉 So funny! Must be in the air today, since after my breakfast of avocado, hemp seeds, onion and sprouts on a sprouted english muffin I had a Cadbury Cream Egg and those addicting Cadbury Mini Eggs!!!
Addiction loves company, my friend! But my vegan chocolate protein shake (thank you Missy) and cucumbers don’t come close to your delish breakfast.
Those Cadbury mini eggs. Oh boy. That’s another one. I’ve brought great pains to my midsection, knowingly and gladly, with those. 🙂
Green juice tomorrow.
Love you!
Lucille and Lisa……… two of my very favorites! xoxox
You deserve the sweetness…..it suits you!
Treats are a good thing…..just enjoy my friend
Sweet words from sweet Jenn! It was just the fervency with which I devoured the chocolate toffee-bit covered pretzels…like a machine. But you’re right, self-flagellating does no good. The mild discomfort in the belly that followed was enough of a reminder to stick with better choices, even on the sweets.
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My husband is British and i’ve noticed that whenever he gets a little stressed he sits and has tea and a bit of chocolate. I love this mentality of slowing down and relaxing a bit. I agree, enjoy some sweets here and there at the grocery store!
ParenthleteMom, you and your husband are spot on. When I’m at home and feel the shoulders starting to creep up, tension rising, some tea and a wheat sandwich thin spread with Biscoff is where I go. Tea is so soothing, in part because of the time we must allow it to steep and then, of course, the warm (or hot!) temperature requires that we slow down. Sip. Take it all in. Enjoy the ride.
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